Sunday, December 30, 2012

Forget the past

"I will no longer waste my time relieving the past, instead I will spend it worrying about the future."

Haha....  Truthfully, this is how I often live.  I spend a lot of time reliving the past and, alternately, worrying about/planning the future.  This morning my husband spoke about these words from Isaiah in the Old Testament.


“Forget about what’s happened;
    don’t keep going over old history.
Be alert, be present. I’m about to do something brand-new.
    It’s bursting out! Don’t you see it?
There it is! I’m making a road through the desert,
    rivers in the badlands."


Isaiah 43:19

Most New Year's eve I reflect on the past year and look forward to a New Year.  This year want to take seriously the words from Isaiah and forget about what's happened.  I'm a little anxious about the New Year. So many things seem so uncertain.  I pick a "word" for the New Year.  I haven't picked one yet.  Last year's word was "contentment".  I feel I was/am pretty content.  This year.... hmmmm.... I don't know yet.  I want to live expectantly, to trust wholeheartedly, to take risks, to be bold, but there is a certain amount of fear.  

So, what should my "word" be this year?  What about your word?  

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Ahhhh

Today was such a relaxing day.  I want a whole string of days like this.  We had a fire in the fireplace, junk food out and a puzzle starting on the dining room table.  It actually felt like vacation today!
I don't want it to be Sunday tomorrow.

Friday, December 28, 2012

Would You Want to Know?

If you could know what the new year holds, would you find out?  When I opened my email this morning, there was a link for horoscope with a subject line something like "find out the future".  In some ways it's tempting.  But, what if the year has a lot of bad news?  I wouldn't want to know that!  
I've been pondering my "word" for the year.  Every year I choose a word for the year.  I pick a word that expresses what I want to "work on" or one that I Hope for.  Last year I chose the word "Contentment".  My husband chose the word "Hope".  
As I think about this last year, I feel I was content but also challenged to make some changes.  I've been learning a lot about faith.  I need to trust God for every moment.  True faith doesn't need to know what tomorrow holds.  True faith trusts in the Sovereign love and power of God, our Father who loves us.
I still have a few days to think and pray about my word for 2013.  
I have a fair amount of anxiety about the future as I look at the news... "The Fiscal Cliff"...  unrest in the Middle East, increasing violence in our country in places like malls, theaters and Kindergarten classes.
I wonder about my job(s) (of which I have 3)... my husband's work (he also has about 3-4 jobs)... our own personal debt and the future for our children.  How stable are our jobs?  How stable is anything, really?
Hmmmmm...

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Neither were they thankful


2 Timothy 3:1-4 Amplified version
But understand this, that in the last days will come (set in) perilous times of great stress and trouble [hard to deal with and hard to bear].
For people will be lovers of self and [utterly] self-centered, lovers of money and aroused by an inordinate [greedy] desire for wealth, proud and arrogant and contemptuous boasters. They will be abusive (blasphemous, scoffing), disobedient to parents, ungrateful, unholy and profane.
[They will be] without natural [human] affection (callous and inhuman), relentless (admitting of no truce or appeasement); [they will be] slanderers (false accusers, troublemakers), intemperate and loose in morals and conduct, uncontrolled and fierce, haters of good.
[They will be] treacherous [betrayers], rash, [and] inflated with self-conceit. [They will be] lovers of sensual pleasures and vain amusements more than and rather than lovers of God.
I was working in the kitchen, getting things ready for the morning when heard the news about all the sales for "Black Friday".  Some have been camping out in front of stores since yesterday morning!  It used to be that stores would not decorate for Christmas or advertise for Christmas until AFTER Thanksgiving. Is anyone truly thankful?   
Can we not just take even ONE day to set aside and thank GOD for all He has given us and how He has blessed us?  Instead people are lined up, camped out, elbowing their way toward the front of a line to buy something that probably don't need with money they don't have.  
Those words from Paul to Timothy came to mind as I was working in the kitchen.  "in the last days difficult times will come... " .  Look at how Paul describes them and see if they don't sound like today!  "lovers of self, lovers of money.... ungrateful, unholy....".  Seeing this fleshed out before my eyes makes me both scared and sad.  Scared because things really are getting worse, and our society has lost its moral footing.  There is no fear of God, there is no more decency, no modesty, no common courtesy (or at least very little of these things!).  It makes me sad because God has given us so much.  He gives us life and breath every day!  He makes the sun rise and set.  He sets the starts in place.  He changes times and seasons.  We think we've done it all!  How foolish are we?  
In Paul's letter to the Romans chapter 1 he says,
"They know the truth about God because he has made it obvious to them. 20 For ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse for not knowing God.  21 Yes, they knew God, but they wouldn’t worship him as God or even give him thanks. And they began to think up foolish ideas of what God was like. As a result, their minds became dark and confused. 22 Claiming to be wise, they instead became utter fools. 23 And instead of worshiping the glorious, ever-living God, they worshiped idols made to look like mere people and birds and animals and reptiles."

My husband preached on giving thanks last Sunday.  One thing he mentioned was that sometimes we need to be thankful for things like hunger and thirst, for when we truly know hunger and thirst then we are truly grateful for food and drink.  We (I) should be thankful for what we have but also for what we lack because God is working in our hearts to be truly blessed and truly thankful.

I am thankful.  I am blessed.  I am glad I will be with family tomorrow, relaxing, giving thanks and not camping out on hard cement to get my hands on some new toy.  God has given me/us so much.  
Let us give thanks!



and more...

33. New tooth brush
34. Headache is almost gone
35. Cool breeze coming into the house
36. Electricity so I can run my oven, computer, lights, etc.
37. That God uses misfits! :)
38. Fresh bread baking
39. Clean, comfy socks
40. Tissues

Monday, November 19, 2012

Still more....

26. Clean teeth!
27. Christmas music (for the record, I'm not listening to it yet, just practicing it)
28. Red Converse High Tops from my husband
29. C.S. Lewis books
30. Oranges
31. Hazelnut coffee
32. The wastebasket in the living room that has been there for as long as I can remember.


Sunday, November 18, 2012

more...

19.  Scars on my hand that show God's healing
20. "The Messiah" - fabulous music and inspiring words
21. The colors of the trees on our street, bright orange, red, green, yellow...
22. Sleep
23. Rain
24. The ability to speak another language. It is SO cool!
25. Contentment