It's like a collision in my head.  I'm reading "One Thousand Gifts" (and loving it!).  It's dove-tailing perfectly with  my own personal study on "Contentment".  I'm also doing a new Bible study called "The Lord's Table".  It's all very positive. Then there's other stuff going on that rattles me and messes up my "zen".  All the positive "good feelings" I'm feeling from the other stuff is colliding with the $%& and I'm in a quandary as to how to respond.  Bleh.